3 weeks to go

Tomorrow my wedding will be three weeks away - do you think I haven't felt nervousness? I have felt nervousness.

For instance, yesterday N. drove to Tucson for a dentist appointment. In my heart I gave her a fifty-fifty chance of returning home alive. The desert is a dangerous place.

I tried to call her but got no answer on her cell phone. She tried to call when she got home but got a phone company message saying that my phone was disconnected. I was sure she had passed away, gone up to Heaven.

We did eventually connect, but this paranoia is for the buzzards.

To make matters worse, she's flying out here on an airplane tomorrow, and she's a notorious white knuckle passenger even under normal circumstances. Say a prayer that she gets here in one piece. Pray that she doesn't will the plane to take a nose dive through telekinetic panic.

If she and I can make it past this weekend alive, still engaged, and not otherwise mutilated, torn or spindled, then I will relax.